I was doing dishes last night and had so many things overflowing from me that I sat down to record not sure of what was going to come out. I knew I wanted to talk about love but I wasn't sure exactly how this episode was going to shape itself. This was my whole reason for starting this podcast. So I could share the things that flow through my mind in the hopes that maybe someone can take a page from my book and it can impact their lives in some way.
This episode is pretty personal and vulnerable. It can be hard to admit the truth of your life sometimes. It can be painful to wrap your mind around what occurred and how that wasn’t the way it was supposed to be but it is the way that it is.
Reading bell hooks has helped me a lot when it comes to changing my perspective on what love really is. Love is an action. Sure, we can feel overwhelmed by the emotions that come along with love, but if you say you love someone and you turn around and harm them (sometimes we don’t mean to harm people, there is nuance here as always) then how can we learn what love really looks like and feels like. This has been something I struggled with most of my adult live up until a few years ago (and if I’m honest, I still deeply struggle with it from time to time). Let’s be realistic when you have spend over 32 years of your life being told that love is abuse and that people abuse you because they love you, it’s gonna cross some wires in your brain and body that are going to need a love of love, attention, compassion and work to rewire. So this is a micro moment of my thoughts on learning what love is as an adult when you grew up in an abusive home.
As always, take what resonates and leave the rest! I appreciate every single person who takes the time to listen to me!
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